True Love...

Find arms that will hold you at your weakest, eyes that will see you at your ugliest, lips that will kiss you in both instances, and a heart that will love you at your worst. Only then will you have found your true love...

Day 1

There was nothing much to do at work... maybe I was just feeling kinda down to do much... mindfucking myself again... doing some comparison between my dear's past and present...

Just feel like knocking my own head sometimes... why do I let something that happened so long ago and before u met me get to me so much...

I kept reminding myself... what we share now means much much more... now that we are both more matured... and we are both so willingly to commit 100% to each other. If things with our pasts were so great.. it wudnt be left in the past... and this applies to me too...

Was chatting with both my exes... the 3 yrs one and the 7 mths one... both of them messaged me first. The 3 yrs one is still trying to get over his heart ache... he's over me... but he's jst not over the fact that he got hurted by someone... he's 29 this yr... maybe after calming his broken heart for 4-5 yrs.. he shud be at ur age and meet his special someone.

The 7 mths jerk has met someone new... suprisingly her name starts with E, she's my height and is very much like me. Rebound or fate? I don't even wanna find out....

All this mindfucking tears my heart apart... my hand was shivering cold and my heart was beating so fast... took a walk to the ladies and sat on the toilet throne and just thought to myself... hey... if everything goes well... we will be husband and wife in months... what past and what failed love can fight with that?

Darling I know I have been less than understanding sometimes... I hear what u say but refuse to hear you... I'm never ever gonna give u the u are too good for me therefore I dont deserve u kinda talk...

I deserve u and u deserve me... I'll just learn to appreciate you more and never ever give u a reason to walk away or give myself a reason to walk away. Darl... breaking up or divorce is not an option to us yea...

I miss you so damn much it feels like I lost a part of me... the heart feels empty and I just wanna go to bed at 9pm so that tomoro comes faster... and Thursday comes faster... I just don't want you to know how much I am missing you right now... don't want u to feel disturbed and not able to concentrate on ur work...

Darling I am so proud to be your girlfriend... and your loyal partner... I love u so much...

Gonna get a drink n get sleepy... until tomoro comes... missin u loads....

A letter to myself

Dear mermaid...

"You aren't going to be his 1st, his last, or his only... he’s loved before; he will love again. But if he loves you now, what else matters? He’s not perfect - you’re not either. If he can make you laugh and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He’s not going to be thinking about you every moment of the day, but he will give you a part of him that he knows YOU can break - his heart. So don’t hurt him, don’t change him, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than he can give. Smile when he makes you happy, let him know when he makes you mad and miss him when he’s not there. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always ONE guy that is perfect for you."

Darling... you are my perfect guy.... love you and gonna miss you while u are away... I'll be good... pwomise =)

=)

Whenever life seems to drift you away from me, I can't help but cry. You've grown to be such a part of me that without you life is no more than a desperate sigh. They do say love comes and goes, and to that I disagree. So, here's my hand, take it and don't let go of me.

A Non Copy & Paste

I wake up every morning not believing my luck when I see you sleeping beside me... every single time I look at you I just can't resist caressing your face...

Thank you darling for all the wonderful wonderful happiness in the world you have showered me. Helping me around the house... taking care of me when I am sick and sweeping me off for a holiday when I needed one...

I love you so much it shakes the core of my heart...

I thank god every night before I go to bed for granting me my soulmate, the man I wish to spend the rest of my lfe with...

I'd've loved you anyway...

I would've loved you anyway; I'd do it all the same; not a second I would change, not a touch that I would trade. Even if I've known my heart would break, I'd've loved you anyway...

Love is..

Love is a decision not an emotion or feeling,
that if made from the heart will outlast anything...

- Raul and Samantha Juarez -

Us iii

In life, love is never planned nor does it happen for a reason, but when the love is real, it becomes your plan for life and your reason for living

Us ii

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but an entire lifetime to forget them

Us

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around.

You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more.

You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you.

When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement.

They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself.
Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful.

There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around.

You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are.

The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever.

Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it's like being young again. Colors seem brighter and more brilliant.

Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn't exist at all.

A phone call or two during the day helps to get you
through a long day's work and always brings a smile to your face.

In their presence, there's no need for continuous conversation, but you find you're quite content in just having them nearby.

Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you.

You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon.

You open your heart knowing that there's a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible.

You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that's so real it scares you.

You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end.

Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

I Love You dearest...

3 words

I love you!